The question is simple…have your feelings changed?
We’re living at a pace we didn’t set. We refuse sleep and neglect our daily routines. We live fueled by contact consumed like oxygen. I don’t believe you when you say we can’t keep this up. Agitation in my heart and paranoia in my voice give me away. I don’t want to admit that you’re right.
I hold my breath waiting for you to answer. You tell me you’re going to hurt me. That it’s inevitable. I’ve taken chances before on men far less suitable so I’ll take them again on you. I warn you of the possible crimes I may commit, yet you stand firm too. I’ll take your crazy and raise you. You think I’m bluffing, try me.
You pause, and I sense the pain even before the first tear falls. I came here to fight for you. You’ll shed tears for both of us that are long overdue. I’m not going anywhere because your up and down is my home now too. You’ll see mine in time so I’ll challenge you to a duel.
Considering a life without you and me intertwined is beyond my comprehension. We just started. Our fears are old, repackaged for this new partnership. Stripping away their shiny new coats we see that they’re not fit for this ride. The same rules need not apply.
I curl up on your lap with my head on your chest. You protect me from myself at times. Tonight was the first time you laid your head on mine. I saw your apprehension leave, for a moment everything was calm. I know it will return as will mine. We live in cycles and this isn’t the end.
When the sun came up we both looked different. Brighter, stronger, and more sure than before. Words on paper, inspiration from our cores. A hellish ride we’ll endure again not simply because we’re chemical soul mates, but because pain drives us as far as love. I had my answer…and exhaled.
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